JUNE IS BURSTING OUT ALL OVER

If I thought May was crazy June was when the exhaustion set in that tipped the balance. While trying to pace myself to preserve any ability to think I found myself drained and broken. This sent me spiraling off into a numbness that took me a long time to get out of. I'm fortunate enough to have the support at home to allow me to rest so that any energy I could muster was used up trying to keep my commitments.

HOWLING AT THE MOON - DEFINITE LUNACY

The first of the month I was off to play at an OXJAM takeover at Y GLYNDWR , Carmarthen. These events are fundraisers for OXFAM, with a big takeover event planned in the town for October.

OXJAM at Y GLYNDWR CARMARTHEN

Then with meetings to attend and planning to organise I had a head full of Bees while visiting the printers, meeting with the Time to Change Wales project staff, web designers, online marketing company and loads of administration work to sort out.

In between all this I slept and slept and slept, not leaving the house for days at a time and even not leaving my bed for 36 hrs straight. 

This is quite normal for me though, when I can't think from all the noise in my head I just crawl into my cave and wait till I can see straight. Sometimes hours, sometimes days and even weeks at a time, I wait and sleep. When I awaken I check to see how noisy my head is to see whether it's safe to get up, if not I just close my eyes again till the next intermission. It's like charging the battery, waiting for the indicator to say 'battery full, please unplug'.

After a couple of weeks with no sense in my head I had to head off to Ferryside to play at a fundraiser I'd organised. Luckily for me, not being on the right head, it was possibly the worst attended, worst supported event I'd had the pleasure of being a part of. Nevertheless I had a great night playing alongside The Empty Shed Experience and Roger Henderson who are great artists with guesting on Congos, Pete 'the beat' Peric.
It was what I needed, a jam with friends in a relaxed environment followed by a few bevvys.

FERRYSIDE FOLK NIGHT

The rest of the month I tried to get some recuperation. When my system (brain) crashes it leaves me with what I call a cerebral hangover, a sort of fuzzy-ness that takes weeks to disappear. This makes me forgetful, in-coherent, unresponsive and lost. At these times I totally rely on my loved ones to literally lead me by the hand as I mentally regress, unable, unhelpful, I wander zombie-esque through my days.

I thank all my family and friends for their help and support, without whom my life would be unproductive and fruitless. Huge Hugs to you all.

I spent much of my time in my garden, as you can tell by the pics from this month, a real bonus to aiding my recovery.

VIEW ACROSS THE FIELDS

EACH OF THESE BLOSSOMS WILL 
SOON BE AN APPLE

  

A GORGEOUS WELSH SUNSET

ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL EVENING

   

          

   

To see the world in a grain of sand and to see heaven in a wild flower, hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour.

William Blake

  

          

   







Looking forward to July........